Are You Chasing Egypt?

How do you respond when following God isn’t what you expected?


Then the whole community began weeping aloud, and they cried all night. Their voices rose in a great chorus of protest against Moses and Aaron. “If only we had died in Egypt, or even here in the wilderness!” they complained. “Why is the Lord taking us to this country only to have us die in battle? Our wives and our little ones will be carried off as plunder! Wouldn’t it be better for us to return to Egypt?” Then they plotted among themselves, “Let’s choose a new leader and go back to Egypt!”

Numbers 14:1-4 NLT

This scripture talks about the Israelites after God had brought them out of Egypt. After wandering in the wilderness for a couple of years, they had finally arrived at the threshold of the Promised Land. The land flowing with milk and honey.

Keep in mind that this promise was what kept them going through some pretty harsh circumstances. Their answer to everything, I imagine, was “Just wait till we get to the Promised Land!”

It is therefore inevitable that they would have built up a mental picture of what the Promised Land would look like. After being in the desert so long, they probably pictured green rolling hills, bubbling streams, and trees rising to the sky.

Instead, they got a land inhabited by giants. The only things rising to the sky were the walls fortifying the cities. (Numbers 13:25-33)

And the people began to complain.

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Seeing God in the Randomness

Find hope in your darkest moments. God is writing a better story.

I don’t know about you, but I often feel like my life is going nowhere.

Sometimes I have wonderful, meaningful days. Days that fill me with hope and a sense of purpose. Days that make me happy to be alive.

And then, sometimes—more often than I’d like or would care to admit—I have days that feel empty and lifeless. Days that make me question myself and—let’s be honest here—make me question God.

Every time I climb out of one of these ruts, I hope it’ll be the last time. I look forward to living a content, happy, meaningful life all my days.

But then, a few weeks later, I find myself in the pits again.

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What You’re Seeking Can Only Be Found in God

It’s time to stop looking in all the wrong places.

I remember the exact moment I realized money wasn’t making me happy.

It was a year ago. I was working a job I had started out loving, but as the months passed and the stress piled I fell out of love with it. Still, I stayed because the pay was good and I was afraid of being broke.

I was walking to work one morning when I got a notification on my phone that my month’s salary had been deposited in my account. With the addition of that particular deposit, I had more money than I had ever had at any point in my life.

And I thought: But I’m miserable. I have all this money but I’m miserable. Is this all there is to it?

I quit a couple of weeks later.

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Write, For These Words Are True

I’m bringing this blog back to life.

At the same time, I’m changing it from what it once was.

For a blog I created to house my heart’s stories, this blog has been very impersonal. I’ve never really put anything here that gives any insight into who I am. Or, alternatively, who I’m becoming.

That’s going to change.

My life took an interesting turn recently. The person I am now is drastically different from who I was a year ago. My priorities are different. My passions are different. My faith is different—and that’s what this place is going to be about. Faith.

I am turning this site into a Christian blog.

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